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It’s New Years Eve, December 31st, time to reflect on 2005.

As far as the state of the world and the nation, 2005 sucked. It really did. It started out with the horrifying Tsunamis in Asia. That pretty much set the tone for the year. Then there was the Terri Schiavo fiasco. It was truly terrifying, to me, that Congress got involved in what should have been a private matter between family members. It amplified my distrust of the Bush Administration and his neocon minions in Congress. I was utterly appalled when Bush virtually IGNORED the Hurricane Katrina Victims in September for FIVE DAYS. Five, freaking days. I still get pissed thinking about it. There are pictures of dead, bloated bodies floating around what used to be the beautiful American city of New Orleans right on my television. And it takes the Bush Admin FIVE DAYS to tour the site of the devastation. We should all STILL be outraged.

However, the last three months I have seen some hope, politically. The indictments of neocons such as DeLay and “Scooter Libby” have been a start. I will be really happy when I see Bush’s Brain go down in flames. And I don’t even feel bad saying it. The man deserves it.

I think part of what made me want to move back to Spokane, and back to my family, is the hopelessness that began to creep in November of 2004 (when Bush won the election). I just felt the need to be close to my family. Well, and the horrible economy played a huge role, as well. The cost of living in the Bay area just became too much for us so we really needed to move. The American Dream does not exist in the Bay Area anymore. At least for people who don’t want to work 100 hours a week. And then, what’s the point? Working that much doesn’t give you a chance to enjoy the things that are important in life. So we really had no choice, even though we loved living there and miss it very much.

I was very happy and very lucky to get the job I have now as a Youth Services Librarian at Spokane Public Library. That was definitely the best thing that happened to me this year. I finally have a job that I love and that I look forward to. I love working with children and sometimes I can’t believe I get paid for what I’m doing. I also really like being a public librarian. I feel like I have found my professional niche.

I also really love living close to my family. That has been a very good thing. I’ve been able to spend lots of time with my mom and I really have enjoyed it. I feel very secure knowing that my family is so close.

The city of Spokane has much to be desired. Living here for four months has reminded me why I moved away in the first place. I just hope that I can soon gain a little more city pride. I am really ready to settle in somewhere so I just need to figure out how to like this city. Maybe I will feel better this summer when I can get outside more. If you think about it, though, I moved here from Santa Cruz, CA. I think any city is going to suck compared to Santa Cruz. It’s hard to get used to the more conservative attitude in Spokane, for one thing. For example, when I go into this little natural food store down the street called Huckleberries I expect to be shopping among old and young hippie-types. Not the case. Instead, the people that shop there are uptight and rather snobby. Even the liberals here are not very liberal, by Santa Cruz standards. So it’s been really hard to get used to.

Well, enough of my bitching about 2005. I would say something like, “let’s hope 2006 is a better year,” but I’m not. I think I am going to just go with the flow. I’m not going to have any expectations. I think that I need to realize that this is where I’m at right now and I need to be happy with it.

I do have a few goals for next year, which I will post tomorrow.

Happy New Year! Have a safe one!