I feel so terrible that I’ve neglected my blog for so long. I think I just needed a bit of a break. Maybe I still do. I don’t know. I do know that I have thing to post, It’s just the doing that I’m having trouble with at the moment.
My dad stayed at Timberline Lodge a couple of weeks ago and I took him on a hike up there. Then we had lunch at the fancy tavern upstairs. Then we did the tour. We were exhausted by the end of the day but we had lots of fun. It was so good to see him. I’ve really missed him since I moved to Sandy. We used to go on hikes together in Spokane and I’ve missed doing that.
I was sad to see the poor, pitiful amount of snow up on Mt. Hood. It seems Mt. Hood should have snow, you know? It doesn’t seem right to see the mountain so bare. It seems the tide has turned though. Winter has arrived on the mountain!
If I was into winter sports I’d be stoked. Sadly I’m not. No more hiking up there for me until spring. 😦
In other news, I signed up for NaNoWriMo. Gulp. I have no idea what I’m writing about. I’ve never written a novel before. I’ve always wanted to write a novel though. So I thought I’d just go for it. The past three Novembers have not been very conducive to this sort of thing (what with all of the cancer and death) but I’m hoping that I will have a nice, calm, November this year. :crossing fingers:
Also, in blog news, I changed the look again. I wasn’t liking the other one. It was pretty but not exactly what I like in a blog.
At my meditation group there is a friend who has had to deal with a lot of death lately. She was exasperated and wondered aloud how long she would have to deal with this. “For the rest of your life” was the response.
And this is so true. I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately as I’ve been going through the grieving process. This has been one of the most painful things I have ever been through. And the worst part of it is the thought that I will, most definitely, go through this again. It is inevitable. That seriously sucks. I’m sure that it won’t get better with each new experience. I’ve experienced the death of a loved one in the past. My Grandparents. I still think about them almost every day and they’ve been gone for twenty years. I even cry sometimes when I think about them.
At the same time I’m ok with it. I have to be ok with it. It’s going to happen and I can’t fight it. I guess when it happens I’ll deal with it. I will experience that pain. But rather than dwell on things that haven’t happened yet, I will enjoy those who are with me right now completely and fully while I’ve got them.
So I’ve been having lots of fun with my new iPod, taking pictures and even shooting video of various things. The above was taken on a hike a couple of weeks ago. Raf and I went up to one of our favorite hiking spots and saw Salmon spawning! I’d never seen Salmon swimming around in their element before. I’ve eaten plenty of them, but have never seen one alive. It was beautiful and awesome. And not awesome in the vernacular sense. Awesome in the “nature is so breathtaking” sense. We sat on the riverside and watched them for awhile and felt so incredibly blessed to be there at that moment to see it.