It’s a new month and the perfect time to start a new focus for my photo blog. I’ll get back to self portraits at another time, perhaps. For now, here is a pinhole photo of daisies for you. I took this on a walk home from work in May. It is not often that I take a detour through the park, but I did on this day. And then I rested next to the creek while I made this photo. It was a relaxing 13 seconds.
This was shot with Lomo Purple. I am really liking this film the more I use it. I will share more Lomo Purple pinhole shots with you in later posts.
Camera: Terrapin Bijou
Film: Lomo Purple
Exposure time: 13 seconds
November is a difficult month for me. For the past five years the modus operandi has been to fall into a groove of grief that turns into a depression that becomes very difficult to dig my way out of. I started to find myself in that familiar, depressing, place about a week ago. Somehow, something inside of me decided I was tired of feeling sad and unhappy. Surely, there is a better way? So I decided to figure out how I could find my way out of this groove.
I began to collect songs into a “Happy” playlist on my iPhone. I asked my friends on Facebook and Twitter for their favorite happy songs, too.
When I was beginning to feel depressed last week I thought I would try to change the course of my day by changing the first 5 minutes of my morning. Instead of waking up feeling dread I would do something to make myself feel happy. So the first five minutes of every day for the past week has been dedicated to listening to a song from the “happy” playlist. I don’t do anything else, just listen. Sometimes I sit on my meditation cushion and listen. Guess what? It has worked. There is something about listening to a happy song that has sort of thrown my brain out of the habit of being negative first thing in the morning. Shitty things still happen, but it seems like I am able to let it roll off my back better.
I thought I would share my “happy” playlist with you! It is constantly changing. I am removing things and adding to it. But this is what it looks like today. What would you add to it?
Note: I am fully aware that some of these song are “uncool.” that is part of the fun. They are guilty pleasures. 🙂
- I Can See Clearly Now – Johnny Nash
- Don’t Stop – Fleetwood Mac
- Magic – B.o.B.
- Lovely Day – Bill Withers
- Happy House – The Juan Maclean
- Let Forever Be – The Chemical Brothers
- Shake It Off – Taylor Swift (YOU LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT!)
- Good Times Roll – The Cars
- Horizons – An Horse
- Float On – Modest Mouse
- Three Little Birds – Bob Marley
- The Middle – Jimmy Eat World
- Whip It – Devo
- Fall Back Down – Rancid
- You Are A Tourist – Death Cab For Cutie
- Don’t Stop Believin’– Journey
- I Gotta Feeling – The Black Eyed Peas
- Party Rock Anthem – LMFAO
- Celebration – Kool And The Gang
- On Top Of The World – Imagine Dragons
- The Great Divide – The Mowglis
- Safe And Sound – Capital Cities
- This Too Shall Pass – OK Go
Things for me, lately, have been overwhelming. I am going through some stress and, unfortunately, I don’t do stress very well. I have recently learned that I am a Highly Sensitive Person. Actually, this is something that I’ve known about myself all of my life, I am just finding out that there is a name for it. And that I’m not alone (which is great!). But more on this in another blog post. What I want to talk about today is happiness.
I am finding myself lately trying to fit into that box that society calls “normal.” Frankly, I am not really sure what that is. In my head I think it is being happy. Society says that we should be happy. That if we aren’t happy something is wrong with us. I find myself falling easily into this thought groove. Then someone or something comes along and reminds me that happiness isn’t the be all and end all.
There is something very freeing about this thought. I don’t have to always be happy. Wow. That takes a load off. There is a lot of pressure and work in being happy all of the time.
I think for me the best thing is to focus on what is right in front of me at any given moment. I can do that. Sometimes, anything beyond the given moment can be overwhelming. Today is one of those days. Today I need to just focus on what is right in front of me.
I find that when I do that I can be content. Content is good. In many ways I think I’d rather be content than happy.