O.K. I’ll admit it. I struggle with depression sometimes. I’m sure this isn’t a huge revelation to anyone who knows me or has read my blog for any length of time. But sometimes I just have to admit to myself that I’m depressed. And sometimes this depression can lead me down some very dark roads. And it really sucks, as those of you who go through it know.
Yesterday was one of those days. I couldn’t seem to pull myself the fuck out of it. it was like falling into a pit of oozing mud and I just slid further and further in and the more I tried to get out the further in the hole I got. Oh god, and then there is that inner critic. Do you have that “inner critic?” I think we all do. Well, mine is a heartless, cruel, bastard.
Anyway, So I woke up still feeling a bit like crap. I meditated and that helped immensely. I exercised. That helped too. Then I went through my morning internet ritual of checking e-mail, twitter, facebook. Someone posted a video of Earth Wind and Fire‘s September on twitter and I can’t even begin to tell you how happy it made me feel. The sun was coming up and it was going to be a beautiful day and here was this song that took me straight back to the happiness of my childhood in the Seventies. It was wonderful. It was like a gift from the universe. And how awesome that these little gifts are delivered by other beings (human or animal, or even just things in nature) in this universe?
It just makes me realize how connected we all are. We can help each other in ways we don’t even realize. I love that. this person on Twitter that has no idea I exist made me very happy today. I hope that I can do the same thing for someone who needs it someday.
Today I’m going to take the train into Portland to meet up with my friend Preita. She is someone I’m friends with on Flickr and Ravelry. We’ve been friends online for 5 years. can you believe that? 5 years! This will be the first Ravelry (knitting) friend I’ve met in person. I’ve met lots of Flickr friends in person.
So I’m super excited! Camera’s batteries are charged up and I’ve got a couple of my favorite knitting magazines ready to go for yarn requirement reference (The Melissa Issue of Knitscene, is one of them).
I’ll post tomorrow about my adventure. That’s it for today.
Image by liberalmind1012 via Flickr
Yesterday was a strange day. I recieved a message in my inbox saying that I had a Myspace friend request. Skeptical, I logged into Myspace to see who this person was. As it turned out it was a real person and not a spammer. The person was someone that graduated from my High School the same year I did! We e-mailed back and forth a few times and decided that we really don’t remember each other, but as I was looking at her friend list I saw lots of familiar names and faces there. I checked out thier profiles and photos. I noticed that there were “reunion” albums in thier profiles. Reunion? Yes. Apparently there was a 20 year reunion, in Spokane, the town in which I live, last summer and I didn’t know about it. How did I not know about this? It’s not like I’m a hard person to find! I’m all over the freaking internet! And look, My name is posted right here on this page for the South Hill Library! and there is at least one person in this town that I graduated with that knows how to get ahold of me!
Needless to say I’m kind of pissed off about it. I’m actually someone who would’ve liked to have gone, had they invited me.
Why do I feel like I’m in High School?
Image via Wikipedia
It’s unfortunate that congress passed “The Deleting Online Predators Act (DOPA)” (don’t you love the names of these bills?). Unfortunate because it does not allow children to access websites that utilize social networking web technology. Yes these sites include websites like My Space. BUT other very useful websites utilize this technology, as well. Amazon.com is one of them. So we are not going to let children in public libraries and schools visit Amazon? I have to agree with the author of this article:
If anything, schools and libraries should be encouraging kids to use blogging and social networking services. They have enormous educational potential for such things as writing, interviewing, collaborative research, media literacy, and photography, but even if not used as part of a formal supervised education program, they encourage kids to communicate and reach out to others.
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