I am a Children’s Librarian living in the Portland, Oregon area. When I am not Children’s Librianing I like to play with cameras and film. I also like playing the ukulele, knitting, sketching, and hiking.
This is kind of fun. I was going through Google Docs and found this little, what to call it.. ditty? poetry? (heavy on the question mark).
I think it’s a list of the last lines of journal entries from this past year. I’m not sure if they were randomly selected or what. It must have been the beginning of some writing exercise or something.
Something to think about.
I feel like I’m going a little crazy.
If jesus were around today they wouldn’t recognize him.
I need to stay the hell away from them.
I don’t want to be led into making that mistake again.
We are all rowing the same boat.
How does one feel it in everyday life?
I miss you being on this earth.
I mentioned in my last post that I signed up for NaNoWriMo. I sat down this morning to start my novel and got burned out on it after 650 words. sigh. I’m not sure I’m a novel writer.
The good news is that I have a first chapter written. So that’s something? It’s a very badly written first chapter, but still.
I’ll let it marinate. Who knows maybe it will all come together and I’ll be stoked on it.
In the meantime I thought I’d at least participate in NaNoBloMo since it’s kind of been a tradition here at Blatherskite for the past few years. I have no problem blathering on about myself forever. It’s just the making up stories part I’m not great at.
I’ve had a lot on my mind so I’ll probably write about it and post it this month. There might be poetry. And pictures. And if I’m feeling really courageous, perhaps some ukulele playing.
I feel so terrible that I’ve neglected my blog for so long. I think I just needed a bit of a break. Maybe I still do. I don’t know. I do know that I have thing to post, It’s just the doing that I’m having trouble with at the moment.
My dad stayed at Timberline Lodge a couple of weeks ago and I took him on a hike up there. Then we had lunch at the fancy tavern upstairs. Â Then we did the tour. We were exhausted by the end of the day but we had lots of fun. It was so good to see him. I’ve really missed him since I moved to Sandy. We used to go on hikes together in Spokane and I’ve missed doing that.
I was sad to see the poor, pitiful amount of snow up on Mt. Hood. It seems Mt. Hood should have snow, you know? It doesn’t seem right to see the mountain so bare. It seems the tide has turned though. Winter has arrived on the mountain!
If I was into winter sports I’d be stoked. Sadly I’m not. No more hiking up there for me until spring. 😦
In other news, I signed up for NaNoWriMo. Gulp. I have no idea what I’m writing about. I’ve never written a novel before. I’ve always wanted to write a novel though. So I thought I’d just go for it. The past three Novembers have not been very conducive to this sort of thing (what with all of the cancer and death) but I’m hoping that I will have a nice, calm, November this year. :crossing fingers:
Also, in blog news, I changed the look again. I wasn’t liking the other one. It was pretty but not exactly what I like in a blog.
At my meditation group there is a friend who has had to deal with a lot of death lately. Â She was exasperated and wondered aloud how long she would have to deal with this. “For the rest of your life” was the response.
And this is so true. I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately as I’ve been going through the grieving process. This has been one of the most painful things I have ever been through. And the worst part of it is the thought that I will, most definitely, go through this again. It is inevitable. That seriously sucks. I’m sure that it won’t get better with each new experience. I’ve experienced the death of a loved one in the past. My Grandparents. I still think about them almost every day and they’ve been gone for twenty years. I even cry sometimes when I think about them.
At the same time I’m ok with it. I have to be ok with it. It’s going to happen and I can’t fight it. I guess when it happens I’ll deal with it. I will experience that pain. But rather than dwell on things that haven’t happened yet, Â I will enjoy those who are with me right now completely and fully while I’ve got them.
