Blatherskite

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I am a Children’s Librarian living in the Portland, Oregon area. When I am not Children’s Librianing I like to play with cameras and film. I also like playing the ukulele, knitting, sketching, and hiking.

Tag: death

  • I will follow you into the dark

    Twice yesterday the song “I Will Follow You Into The Dark” came on randomly. once on my ipod and once on the radio. The first time it played, I had to change the song after two measures. The sequence of chords at the beginning of the song instantly make my eyes well up with tears.…

  • The Difficult Post

    Today marks exactly one year since Doug died. I have been sort of dreading this day. I’ve actually been dreading this whole holiday weekend  because I knew it would be difficult. I’ve thought about that day many, many times over the past year. It is impossible to think about without tears welling up, no matter…

  • Thanksgiving and Pea Salad

    A year ago today Raf and I got up early, packed up the car and began our long drive to Spokane. My mom called a few days before to say that Doug didn’t have much longer to live. I didn’t know what that meant at the time, logically. Did he have a month? Three months?…

  • The Oregon Rain makes me all introspective

    At my meditation group there is a friend who has had to deal with a lot of death lately.  She was exasperated and wondered aloud how long she would have to deal with this. “For the rest of your life” was the response. And this is so true. I’ve been thinking a lot about this…

  • On Grief

    On Grief

    I’ve been going to a meditation group once a week. I’ve been going for about 2 months now and I love it. I think it has kind of changed my life. I’ve mentioned before that I’ve been interested in Zen and have been reading and learning about it for a couple of years. The only problem is…