Here is my One Second A Day video for 2014! What a wonderful year.
I meant to post this last night but doing the final edits took forever and eventually I fell asleep on the couch as I waited for it to upload to Youtube. Raf woke me up at midnight so we could ring in the new year. Typical New Years Eve for us. 🙂
Up front, I have to say that 2014 was just so excellently good. I honestly can’t think of a bad thing from this past year. It was good in so many ways. Here is a list of some of my favorite moments and things that happened.
November is a difficult month for me. For the past five years the modus operandi has been to fall into a groove of grief that turns into a depression that becomes very difficult to dig my way out of. I started to find myself in that familiar, depressing, place about a week ago. Somehow, something inside of me decided I was tired of feeling sad and unhappy. Surely, there is a better way? So I decided to figure out how I could find my way out of this groove.
I began to collect songs into a “Happy” playlist on my iPhone. I asked my friends on Facebook and Twitter for their favorite happy songs, too.
When I was beginning to feel depressed last week I thought I would try to change the course of my day by changing the first 5 minutes of my morning. Instead of waking up feeling dread I would do something to make myself feel happy. So the first five minutes of every day for the past week has been dedicated to listening to a song from the “happy” playlist. I don’t do anything else, just listen. Sometimes I sit on my meditation cushion and listen. Guess what? It has worked. There is something about listening to a happy song that has sort of thrown my brain out of the habit of being negative first thing in the morning. Shitty things still happen, but it seems like I am able to let it roll off my back better.
I thought I would share my “happy” playlist with you! It is constantly changing. I am removing things and adding to it. But this is what it looks like today. What would you add to it?
Note: I am fully aware that some of these song are “uncool.” that is part of the fun. They are guilty pleasures. 🙂
“The most dangerous distractions are the ones you love, but that don’t love you back.”
James shared a really great article with me in the comments of my post from yesterday. It has me thinking about my list.
The idea from the article is to limit yourself to 5 goals. Anything else is a waste of time. I think the first thing I need to do is make some goals. So what are my goals regarding the things listed? Let’s see…
write – Goal: I don’t know. Become a published Poet? Become a published short story writer? I know I don’t want to write novels. I don’t have a novel in me.
Read – Goal: I have lots of reading goals. One of them is to read through all of the Pulitzer Prize winners. Another is to read through the Graphic Novel canon. I have some work-related goals as well (get caught up on newly published kid’s books so I can do book talks on them).
Practice ukulele- Goal: go through that Bluegrass Ukulele book I bought 3 years ago. But why do I want to do this? I don’t have any aspirations to be a ukulele performer. I just like to play the ukulele. It that ok? To just play it because it makes me happy? Is that a good enough goal? Or do I need to attain higher aspirations?
Draw – Goal: go through the “Drawing on the Right Side Of The Brain” workbook I bought 4 months ago. Again, I don’t have any aspirations to be a great artist. I want to learn to draw for my own edification.
Knit – Goal: Finish a Dr. Who scarf I am making for a Twitter friend.
Photography – Goal: I don’t really know what my goals are for photography! I know that I enjoy it. I know that I love Pinhole Photography. I have a blog about Pinhole Photography that I’ve been neglecting. Perhaps I should make some kind of goal relating to my blog? I have some ideas for some projects, maybe I should clarify what those ideas are and set some goals.
Running/yoga – Goal: I have a goal to run a half marathon next summer. I am planning on running the Huckleberry Half.
Meditate – This is just something that I need to because of my spiritual practice. There are no goals in Buddhism.
This was actually kind of an interesting exercise. It makes me realize that I am generally not very goal oriented when it comes to creative pursuits. I wonder if that is ok? I wonder if those things that I don’t have goals for are the things I should cut out?
And as I was doing this I realized that there are some things I am more passionate about than others. Photography pulled more on my heart strings than writing. The goal of becoming a published poet didn’t really do much for me. Maybe that is something I can and should let go of.
I have some other thoughts, I will continue to think out loud on this. It’s kind of helping me. 🙂 Maybe in a future post I will break down each of these things to see what exactly I want to do with them and why I am drawn to them.
Practice ukulele (go through that Bluegrass Ukulele book I bought 3 years ago)
Draw (go through the “Drawing on the Right Side Of The Brain” workbook I bought 4 months ago)
Knit (Already doing – in the morning with coffee)
Photography (of course)
Running/yoga (alternate days)
Meditate (20 minutes everyday)
Can I do it? Can I fit all of this into my life? These are the things that I feel like will feed my soul. These are the things that my soul yearns for. I need to figure out how to do all of these things. Or am I being unrealistic? to work full time and do all of these things?